this is a picture of mimi the very first day i got it (about 9 months ago). i remember how small it was back then.
the shop keeper told me it was a SHE but later after almost a year i discovered it was a HE hence the girlish name. haha..but thats okay.
the saddest thing happened to my beloved g.piggy and he died last Tuesday..= (
it happened on a Tuesday morning when i was having my FIRST EXAM paper. i went to clean their cage and feed them as usual when i realized that both were not their greedy self and not making any noises. i popped their house up and was horribly shocked to discover that Mimi was lying upside down motion-lessly!!!
i panicked and screamed for help and Elene my roomie came to my rescue. Mimi was still breathing but he seemed paraylsed and i swear i saw him cry from his eyes..
the whole morning was a blur as i kept panicking and we kept going in circles trying to find a vet or pet store to help Mimi. the damn rotten vet near our house (PENG AUN vet) REFUSED to treat my guinea pig ( i curse them with bad business.) then Juwie googled and found another vet and it DID treat guinea pigs.
doctor Joshua from HOPE clinic was a very kind and patient young chap who took the time to explain and do all kinds of things like taking temperature and flashing torchlight into Mimi's eyes. the dignosis was bleak. Mimi had either broke his neck while falling down from house or sustained brain injury and now like paralyze victim.
=( if u were there u would cry too as it was as if ur own baby child was sick and all u could do was hear more and more bad news and HELPLESS to do anything. it was either put him to sleep or go home and wait slowly for Mimi to die naturally. The vet (God bless his soul) didn't charge me anything probably he knew we were students?
what would u do if u saw ur beloved most precious pet in pain and unable to breathe properly or swallow smashed food from a syringe? i tried to blend food and inject it slowly into his mouth like the doctor said but he was not swallowing well and he looked at me with blank lifeless eyes. he kept crying and making this sad pathetic whimper that make me shed my tears uncontrollably..
it was torturing to bring him to the vet to be put to sleep. on the way on the motor i kept talking to him and tears were naturally dropping again and again..this is my last picture of him alive and it kills me to remember the time i whispered to him at the vet saying my last goodbyes.
i kissed his face and told him i loved him and i had to go.. i smelled his grass and guinea pig smell for the last time.
as i walked away from the cold metal table where he was lying, i felt like something in my heart broke into a thousand pieces and it pieced every organ in my body. the pain was indescribable. i had failed him. i had abandoned him and i let him die..
the vet would cremate him on my behalf because i couldn't think of bringing him back lifeless and having to bury him and watch him go under soil...oh never!
looking back at all the pictures of happier times we had makes me all emo and teary again..
i had loved him so much..
i wish it had never happen..
i was not ready to say goodbye..
thank you for all the adventures we had, all the fun and all sad times.
thank you for making our house 28 a happier place with somebody to greet us when we left for class and when we return from a tiring day at uni..
you brought tremendous joy to the lives of all who have seen, touched and loved u.
thank you for the gift of understanding and calmness u always had.
thank you for teaching me perseverance, gentleness and unconditional love.
i miss u more than u ever know..
i love you So much Mimi..and i still do..always.
rest in peace now my love..your suffering has ended..
"when u have pets that u truly love and cherish, they don't die and forgotten like animals on the street, they die taking a great piece of your soul and heart.."
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