Torn

currently torn inbetween.

between love and friends.

between prioritising wats important in life

what have i pushed to the back?

answer: my ownself.

i want them all

love.friends.money.family.grades.

is it wrong to be greedy?

i was super emo entire day.

emotions are bladdy energy sucking.

they leave u sleepy and teary eyed.

i want to please everybody

its possible but i cant do it

i'm sorry to whom it may concern

its not easy being me

really not easy

i lay in bed all afternoon rethinking how worth it and how i could turn back time

probably i'm not good in time division.

prob i dont have the strength to do so

prob i'm just too plain dumb

prob i'm too one sided.

i want the company of loved ones. ALL not one sided.

it pains me to be far from 1 side then drown in self induced guilt.

GUILT. BETRAYAL. GUILT. BETRAYAL. GUILT. BETRAYAL

its a theme replaying again and again.

i want to erase it

bleach it all out.

burn myself with kerosene and be like ashes flown in the wind

why do happy people be so miserable on the inside.

why does the heart not head rule.

shit, i'm babling again

smack my own head and realise, emo for wat reason?

only the bladdy katak bawah tempurung thinks the world is so small

this will pass and i'll get a solution. no worries.

on the brighter side, i have found a temporal solution.

i want to be in both places at diff times.

so after coming back from the tempurung

i tot of a brilliant plan. this may sound absurd ridiculous but it WORKS FOR NOW!!

solution: CLONE MYSELF.

genius sandra

MUAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH

                                                    


 so cool rite if i could be like the guys above. bergaya, emotionless and everywhere anytime! how cool is that?