the hardest part in life is letting go and forgiving
especially to someone who means the world to u
i have done both
not with a blink of an eye but i struggled n cried n prayed n wrestled with God to the point of breaking down.
my soul can finally rest in peace
the Lord has tested my patience, endurance and ability to love
i can let go of him (mr.X) now.
not so much because i have come to love another
but because i finally realized by being alone, the loneliness may be overwhelmingly scary but it is from that fear that cultivates inner strength and wisdom that could never come if i never tasted the bitterness of loneliness.
My eyes were eventually opened n i saw how impossible he would fit into my life..all the differences n conflicts.
if the person was never meant to be then God will remove him/her from ur life.
u and i may not see the reason or logic now because we use too much of our hearts to feel more than to think
but time will show that he does knows best n all will work out well.
God loves me. He loves u. and he will never give u 2nd best unless u settle for 2nd best.
Finally i breathe a sigh of relief...
finally at last i'm free from my emotions of wanting to control/have somebody that is not mine.
after 7 tortourous months..i'm lifted of the curse. i finally learned my lesson on loving and growing.
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