a missing puzzle

Hi dear readers.

clown creampuff with her super cute jap kids in penang

there is not one day that passes that i dont think about my carefree penang life, frens, food and clowning job. i swear i mean this with all my heart.

There are times i sit n stare into space thinking when will i ever get to relive the passion. it hurts so much sometimes my heart literally aches and i blink away tears to not look weak.

the kids in sch and teaching are not the main problem its the distance with the things i love up north.

i miss this monkey alot n ldr can take its toll on us :(

to stay for them students or just run after my own happiness?

then i ask myself, when the time comes to choose. 

What will make it be worth it? 

Am i mad to give up on opportunities and youth for these kids?

will my life make a  difference in their lives?

what about the people who need me in penang?

 will it be worth to sacrifice my happiness to enrich the lives of others? 

what would make me a better person? 

so many questions. so little sleep. hence i'm soo sick these days with headaches, fever, ulcers, gastric and etc. i dare not complain too much as not to worry my dear aunty n family. they have been too nice to me. feeding n housing me n paying for so many things. feeling indebted is also 1 reason i feel like going back pg n not trouble anybody in life...all i want is to fall into deep sleep n have visions of a clear answer in this dilemma...

why am i even in sch?

Hi dear readers :)

this is my 3rd week as a teacher and today i survived monday blues!

cant believe i'm still hanging on. i mean look at me! i havent quit! omg saying this at this point makes me feel like superwoman wei ! means i'm stronger than i tot i was..thank u for all ur support that has directly and  indirectly helped me thru and thru. Sometimes when i'm alone in sch i think back of all the words ppl have told me verbally n written and it lifts my spirits to know that i'm not alone, that i'm doing something right and to never stop fighting.

view from my sch window..hecters n hecters of oil palm n plantations...

current plan is to hold on for another 3 months cause bad news- $alary only comes in after 3 months of paperwork n registration thingy..owhh shitty rite? they expect us to eat air, photosynthesize like plants for food n walk to sch cause all that no need money wan. genius of a boss up there. all teachers my batch are suffering the same fate as well.

So many ppl asking..so wats ur future plan ah?

simple answer i'm going to struggle thru these 3 months n decide whether i wanna continue long term or just quit n go back penang.

Sometimes i get so fed up of answering i just say yaya..i'm good. teaching so good why dont like..bla bla all is good and those nosy uncle n aunties stop bugging my life.

my workdesk where i sit alone.

But deep down i still feel very miserable indeed. my life in my cousin's house is more than good but the life during worktime..haih.. i promised to never speak evil of my sch n teaching so i wont. I still dont have timetable yet u know. means i go to sch do nothing but relief classes n sit in my corner by myself counting down hours to go home..what a wasteful existence n waste of youth n talent.

I dare say the only good thing is i get my weekends off, i get to go church n for once live a normal life with my family n loved ones all over again..i only LOVE WEEKENDS!! jalan jalan, see him, eat alot, sleep alot, got mom homecook food n do free laundry n just feeling cared for. (so directly after 12noon bell on friday i shoot on highway tekan minyak terus go home- shows how desperate i am to run from sch and all its biro admin crap)

breakfast made with love :)

We saw a clown (his name is Lolypop) in jusco on saturday. i was so excited i tell u. just watching the clown made my heart skip a million beats! we lined up n waited quite long n i made my own balloon sculpture. touching the balloon, hearing the familiar squashing noises of twisting it n watching the kids around the clown made me SOOOOOOOO nostalgic. i wanted to be Creampuff the clown again. i wanted to just fly back to penang asap!

 it made my heart tore once again between family and teaching and home VS love and penang freedom and events job. i hate to be stuck in these situations. to be selfish or just be filial? to be safe or be constantly worrying abt cash? to be confined with rules or to live life independently free? 

i just wish i had more wisdom and insight to choose the better of these choices cause when the time comes i will certainly have to sacrifice one and pay for the consequences :(

blowing bubbles to heaven

Hi dear readers

I am worried of what is about to come.
it feels so out of my control. i cannot imagine how it will be in Malacca and how will things in Penang be while i'm gone. so much uncertainty u know.

but i'm reminded that my God is bigger than all my problems.
He who created this wide wide universe would certainly take care of my itsy bitsy problem and my life for he has never disappointed me then n will never let me down in the future.

When i read this poster above 2 weeks ago it made no sense cause i'm not planning to get married anytime soon but yesterday the most amazing thing happened.

out of the blue, we were casually talking when He held my hands n said 2 magical words i couldn't believe (cause i never expected it).

"Lets pray"

He knelt down on the cold hard floor and prayed for me. 

for all the things i was previously worried about. also the things i never said out loud or requested but he said em all out in prayer.

and deep in my heart i knew despite the odds and little time we have together...that he is the right one. until now i cannot believe how blessed i am.

simply because 12 years ago as a teenager i asked God daily for a guy who not only accepted & loved me but would someday pray with me, for me and support me spiritually and i could do the same viva versa.

i never expected God to remember my prayer from the past. It is well with my soul and all things are beautiful in God's timing. the feeling of getting material presents n physical hugs is nice but the feeling of having him to pray for me is simply  priceless

A simple life and simple love has made me so complete :)

he is my rainbow jelly cake.

Helo dear readers!!

"Love is considered the most basic emotion that human awareness can feel; therefore, it is the closest to the source of life."

love does put spice into your life.

I envision so many happy exciting adventures with him.
either now or in the future.
but the best thing that he has ever done with me is to go to church together.
sounds so simple people will ask why?
regardless of which church it is, it means so much to me.
to have him by my side, loving the same God that i love.
Its priceless to know that he not only loves me but also prays for me,
no guy has said those 2 words together and meant it before.

Means much more than going out to have jolly good fun outdoors or to eat the best fine dining food because all of that is merely worldly pleasures that will fade and bore.

But u cant go wrong with faith. God lies directly in the center of our hearts cause he IS Love creator and perfecter.
and i am happier than ever inside :)

support

When life gets u down,

its so great to have somebody special to share meals with, to have a listening ear and to make u laugh.

thank you for being there for me and showing me the stronger better person i can be.

As easy going as i am...i will fight for what i want. to prove em all wrong and at the same time chase the passion n dreams in my heart.

Together with u and God. i know i can :)

She is my superhero, my mom

Mommy,

if ur reading this

i want to say that you mean the world to me.

i know how lucky i am to be your daughter.

i cringe at the thought of what if i was born into another family..and what if by a cruel twist of fate i would never have met you.

you are my inspiration n the person i aspire to be as i grow older.

mommy i am so sorry

for all the terrible i have done against God and you and family u still took me back into your arms n forgave me and let me start anew with a clean slate.

i'm sorry for all the heartache n tears. no mother should ever endure such pain caused by her children.

your recent call and act of kindness made me cry because i never expected you to find out my problems and never expected you to act one step ahead of me. I am already an adult who is suppose to be taking care of you but instead u still need to babyspoon feed me..

to support me in my rock bottom time was like refreshing rain pouring over the desert in times of drought.

I will never forget your utmost patience, generosity, words of wisdom and gentle voice that calms me down in times of calamity..whether i call in panic night or day even thru ur classroom teaching period  u would always  make time for me, 
whenever i wanted something you would buy it or get the task done for me..
i miss living by myself away from you.

It is true what the bible says about a woman after God's heart

She is a friend, a mother, a sister and wife. loving, loyal, steadfast to the end.

She is one who shines all of God's goodness thru her life.

I just ask to be at least half as kind n strong n wise as you are.

i love you. and those words are not enough to express my deepest gratitude n kindred towards you mom.

May God bless you with all things bright n wonderful because i will never be able to repay all of your love  in this short lifetime...

thank you for never giving up on me. for defending me countless times. for all those silent prayers you said on my behalf.

for seeing me thru to this day...

yours,

Ting :)

Give your heart a break- Demi lovato

Good morning dear readers.

this is the song for today. exactly whats been running thru my mind n heart. the beat is catchy too!


Song Lyrics: Give Your Heart a Break - Demi Lovato 

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are, so close, yet so far
How did I pass the test.
When will you realize
Baby I'm not like the rest

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one night to live
And there's no time to wait (to wait)
So let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

On Sunday, you went home alone,
There were tears in your eyes,
I called your cell phone, my love,
But you did not reply
The world is ours if we want it,
We can take it,if you just take my hand,
There's no turning back now
Baby try to understand

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one night to live
And there's no time to wait (to wait)
So let me give your heart a break, your heart a break,
Let me give your heart a break , your heart a break
There's just so much you can take, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

When your lips are on my lips
Then our hearts beat as one,
But you slip out of my finger tips
Every time you run
Woah oh oh

Don't wanna break your heart,
Wanna give your heart a break,
I know you're scared it's wrong, Like you might make a mistake
There's just one night to live,
And there's no time to wait (to wait)
So let me give your heart a break

Cause you've been hurt before
I can see it in your eyes,
You try to smile it away,
Some things you cant disguise,
Don't wanna break your heart,
Baby I can ease the ache (the ache)
So let me give your heart a break, your heart a break,
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break,
There's just so much you can take,
Give your heart a break,
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

The day I first met you
You told me you never fall in love

On and On song

The reason i posted this song i have just heard today is because in my deepest turbulence and uneasy heart he dedicated this song to me.

 and the lyrics mean the world. it soothes the aching heart like a cool drink of water on a hot day

 and i'm just so grateful for beautiful people in the world who help forget the past n smile into the future :)

"On And On by Mat kearney"

If tonight is your last train out of here
How you gonna run like that? How you gonna run like that?
If this one life, one love left here to share
How you gonna turn your back? How you gonna turn your back?

And I don't care if everyone knows what we're going through
'Cause all the roads lead back to you

On and on and on we pray, we can break into a brighter day
Nothing worth anything ever goes down easy
On and on and on we go, I don't understand this windy road
Nothing worth anything ever goes down easy

If there's one thing that I need to hear from you
Is how we gonna see this through, how we gonna see this through
If there's one thing that I know to be true
Is that I'm in love with you, is that I'm in love with you

And I don't care if everyone knows what we're going through
'Cause all the roads lead back to you

On and on and on we pray, we can break into a brighter day
Nothing worth anything ever goes down easy
On and on and on we go, I don't understand this windy road
Nothing worth anything ever goes down easy

And we'll keep on, keep on climbing on down this narrow line
So we can see the other side, the other side

On and on and on we pray, we can break into a brighter day
Nothing worth anything ever goes down easy
On and on and on we go, I don't understand this windy road
Nothing worth anything ever goes down easy, goes down easy
Goes down easy, goes down easy, goes down easy

oldnewspapers traded in for new paper

the hardest part in life is letting go and forgiving

especially to someone who means the world to u

i have done both

not with a blink of an eye but i struggled n cried n prayed n wrestled with God to the point of breaking down.

my soul can finally rest in peace

the Lord has tested my patience, endurance and ability to love

i can let go of him (mr.X) now.

not so much because i have come to love another

but because i finally realized by being alone, the loneliness may be overwhelmingly scary but it is from that fear that cultivates inner strength and wisdom that could never come if i never tasted the bitterness of loneliness.

My eyes were eventually opened n i saw how impossible he would fit into my life..all the differences n conflicts.

if the person was never meant to be then God will remove him/her from ur life.

 u and i may not see the reason or logic now because we use too much of our hearts to feel more than to think

 but time will show that he does knows best n all will work out well.

God loves me. He loves u. and he will never give u 2nd best unless u settle for 2nd best.

Finally i breathe a sigh of relief...

finally at last i'm free from my emotions of wanting to control/have somebody that is not mine.

after 7 tortourous months..i'm lifted of the curse.  i finally learned my lesson on loving and growing.

Top 10 Boyfriend criteria list

hello everybody

First a little about me. I'm currently a 24 redhead bubble of fun who is also a full time clown. I'm tired of wasting my time on the wrong guys so i followed my bestfren's advice to set some standards or i'll end up in mental prison with the wrong guy. Mom said quick or else else time will catch up, my eggs will dry up n i'll die old n alone. shish..

1. You must be Christian. 

-The first n foremost rule without any negotiation. Not just one by name but one who knows what n who he believes in strongly. one who is a man after God's own heart. Its my dream to have a home rooted with Christ in the center. if u dont know what this all means please stop reading..

2. You cannot be a drug user, smoker or gambler.

- no way in hell  will i tolerate any drug substance abuse of any manner outside of medication for the sick. if u haven't noticed i have bad sinus n if u smoke i will die earlier than my hamster at home..plus parents are damn anti smokers (u will blacklisted till kingdom come). gambling is okay during cny n parties but not big time gambling addict who will sell me off one day to pay off debts.drinking is acceptable if done responsibly.

3. You must be taller than me.

- Your height must be proportional to your weight using the standard AMA guidelines. hey i'm just 160cm. its not that hard. I'm thinking about genetics ok, i dont want super short drawfy children in da future neither do i wanna bend down to kiss u like a kid.

4.You have a job that requires more than a high school diploma. 

-money may not be everything but please earn more than enough to give us the security of having food on the table and basic necessities in life. A car n a home included would be a bonus. its good that i gave up on shopping habbits so u are going to save alot of money in da future! 

5. You have to be smart.

- Education does affect ur maturity of thinking and i'm naturally turned on by people who can connect with me intellectually. smart is not like i scored 20 As in my spm and graduated first class honours shit. u need to have common sense n a wide range of knowledge about things in life. so please be smart (EQ + IQ). I dont wanna degrade my words  to tadika level to make u understand what i'm trying to say..

6. You have a 5 year goal (renewed every term)

- this means u are far visioned and always finding ways to improve n strive towards the future not just being contented in one job n complaining day in day out about ur boring job.  Ur ambitiousness and determination are trademarks of a man i respect and will push me to be a better individual as well.

7. You must know how to cook.

- Times have changed. i cant cook for nuts unless u wanna die of carcinogen cancer poisoning. It would be so sexy if you could show ur talents in the kitchen! and cook does not mean instant noodles or frying an egg. A meal for 2 would be nice.

8. You must at least follow n do one type of sport.

- i dont care if that sport is extreme climbing, golfing, biking or yoga Pilates. u must care enough about ur own health to prove that u will be there to live long enough to protect me n care for me not falling sick more often than i am. sports builds discipline n character so it must be good for u.

9. You need to be a handyman.

- this means u know basic skills like changing a tyre, changing a bulb, fixing broken things at office and at home. My dad could build furniture from scratch n i saw that as so manly!

 seriously, i need a man who can do things with his hands not freak out n shout when a calamity strikes.

10. You aren't afraid of being yourself n accepting me 100%

- even if ur nerdy or have hobbies different from me i need you to show it and be comfortable in ur own skin not pretending to be somebody u are not in the beginning then show all ur colours in the middle of the relationship.
naturally i'm a crazy hyped up person with emotional swings extremely good and extremely bad. must be able to forgive n accept my dysfunctional past n love me for sandra.

Maybe u and i are total opposites but if u compliment my strengths with ur weakness and i compliment ur strengths with my weakness then  you are the missing puzzle in my life :)

There!! i've done the list. If it sounds too harsh n too demanding that is called having standards. if not i'll be soft hearted n end up with any tom,dick n harry from the roadside n regret forever..time to wake up! :)

mai roo?

Ra-tree sa wad !! chan kit theung yerk yerk.........

dont know whats gotten into me lately..

too much hotel aircon air and overload of clowning back to back is messing with my brains n emotions..

thank u Mr.X

HELO DEAR READERS!

today's post is NOT going to be emo and sad. dont worry lahh! ;P
please dont roll ur eyes at me for keep on mentioning him! lol!

a post dedicated to Mr.X (loyal blog readers will know who he is as he's a frequent mention in many older posts)

he who has stolen my heart, broken my heart, rejected almost every action i taken, made me go insane,  made my mood swing up n down, suffered from bad insomnia and stressed for so many months of my life.
i never once blamed him but blamed myself for the prolonged shitty times.

i thought i loved him so passionately but i'm not so sure now. (he never liked me anyways so it was always 1 way)

but it is also him whom i have to THANK for what i am today.

to THANK HIM for opening my mind to new things, for allowing myself to force to be brave enough to go out n meet new people to forget him, do and experience new things to forget him. to try and to wake up n carry on with life with such force eventho its against my weak heart.
to eventually break out of my comfortable cocoon of blindness.

 in the process i have built up a bigger network of friends,exchanged ideas n feelings, raised self confidence and finally know how to handle emotions better. i feel more passionate about life n i have gained back that smile n peace in my heart! (Praise God n thanks to all my friends who have been there emotionally)

like when u break a branch off a tree, the tree grows another one in its place, stronger n sturdier!

never once did i think that heartbreak would lead to such character development.

i try to break free from this circle of self pity n trying to win his attention because i realise that way i would be forever in the same pathetic position. the more i try to break free the more i allow new things in my life.

 time does heal. time does open doors to new things. and God will never let me down.

i dedicate this song to all the broken hearted and love sick people in the same position. Its ok to be sad in the beginning but never allow it to overpower u to the extend of forgetting ur own identity.

and i like my life simple n honest. no boy problems, no money problem (i stopped shopping addiction) no stress from studying or conflicts with friends or family, no health problems <---i dont need any of these and hope they dont come clashing in my mind.

for all those who have loved n lost or heartbroken i believe its normal to have overwhelming emotions ( u are not mad, u WILL get over it), to have love take control of everything u do. to consume u and lose rationality.

 for in the end, God did create emotions and placed them in our hearts. the very beautiful gift that makes us human. the very same thing that makes us feel alive and purposeful. :)

currently i'm not like the happiest person of them all neither am i emotionally disturbed n emo.

i'm just plain content. hope you also can find peace n contentment in ur life ;) cheers!

V day meme

Of all the 9 GAG cartoons i find the forever alone potato head SO damn amusing i had to post his photo.

this meme shows the world that he is forever alone, never loved n never with company so he must be the most poor thing of the whole wide world.

i admit 1 week ago i was filled with hatred for valentines day (cause i got no loved one to celebrate also) n so afraid nobody would call me go out or give me presents. the feeling of loneliness and abandonment n shame n negative tots all flooded in at once.

Confession ; this is my FIRST YEAR CELEBRATING V DAY ALONE without a bf (since like form 1?)

 n then i laid in bed n tot what utter childishness is this?!! Who gave society the power to say single ppl are  less wanted , useless n have to feel bad just because they dont have a partner?!

 So if nobody dated me o gave me presents would it make me LESSER a person?

 will it take away my smile, my happiness, my craziness and passion for life? hell no! 

Perempuan modern tak perlu lelaki untuk jadi complete! Dia sendiri berupaya mencipta kebahagian n berdiakari atas 2 kaki sendiri.

If i had a meme it would be the FOREVER AMUSED face looks like this:

Feeling so content of being single rite now. TAK MATI PUN ceh..

i got friends n God n family to keep me occupied.

haha. happy valentines day again pepz!

Valentine's day VLOG with sexy voice!

Hello DEAR READERS!!!

ITS TIME TO CELEBRATE VALENTINES DAY!!

how are u feeling today? excited? happy? sad? disappointed? totally numb from work and not bothered about tomorrow?

HOW CAN MAN?!!

its valentines! the season to spread da love love love!!

i'm in a lovey dovey mood eventho i'm not going out on a special date or expecting presents/chocolates/ flowers (allergic to all flowers anyway)

who said V day is only for couples/ married ppl with expensive presents n crazy lavish dinners?

 we single ppl can rock V days too wei and  wise ppl will celebrate it without spending a whole ton of money too!

A little classroom lesson. did u know that there is 5 types of love in this world?

Eros is passionate love, with sensual desire and longing. The Modern Greek word "erotas" means "(romantic) love" relationship

Philia , which means friendship in modern Greek, a dispassionate virtuous love, was a concept developed by Aristotle. It includes loyalty to friends, family, and community, and requires virtue, equality and familiarity

Thelema means "desire" in modern Greek; it is the desire to do something, to be occupied, to be in prominence.

Agapē  often refers to a general affection rather than the attraction suggested by "eros"; agape is used in ancient texts to denote feelings for a good meal, one's children, and the feelings for a spouse. its self-sacrificing, giving love to all--both friend and enemy.

Storge  means "affection" in modern Greek; it is natural affection, like that felt by parents for offspring. 

Its a day to celebrate LOVING others and for those single, take this time to cherish friendship n love yourself first n foremost!

ok, enough of words to bore ur poor eyes!

i made a vlog for all my faithful readers! (so sorry for the bad video quality!)
 hope u guys like it as its dedicated to all of u! ;)

LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE SAD OVER SILLY THINGS!!

 i rather spend my life loving myself, my God and the people around me.

you should too ;)

lots of love,

Sandra + Creampuff + Mickey hamster

MUGGING like a MUGGER

I spent the whole day MUGGING my online notes.

Mugging:  Singapore colloquial term for intensive studying; a person who is studying intensively - derived from British colloquial term to mug up.

i physically want to VOMIT after so many hours staring at a page with tiny pewny malay words dancing around. the content sometimes enters the celebral cortex n digested into memory sometimes it justs slip away like a slippery frog.

 s-t-r-e-s-s nia

i tot after university i would NEVER HAVE TO SIT FOR ANY exams but i was wrong. aiyoyo 

so many months of relaxation after graduation has made my temper become very mild n calmer n gentler. now it all flares up again like kerosene poured into bondfire!

this is the one time i'm fierce like a lion > when i'm studying for some exam or watever important. screw with me or say something wrong in this sensitive time n u will DIE. muahahaha. madness also sets in. 

the biggest irony will come if all the hours n effort i put into studying they ask STUPID UNRELATED QUESTIONS then i will launch a massive stink bomb missile and bomb the entire damn Jabatan Pendidikan department in Putrajaya!

i hate studying. and yet i'm so kiasu. watever exam or competition i join i want to be the best. like ALWAYS!

 i will not disappoint myself, my family or my God. 

(this has been my motto since secondary school)

p/s- today i talked to him, only for a short moment but it made me feel so much happier, so motivated to study without feeling an once of tiredness. like a child given candy. maybe just this once i will let myself be happy since its helping me!

and to end my post, i dedicate this song to all you lovebirds out there. i heard this song back in my uni days while i was studying for a major exam and it helped me sing along n took the stress away!

enjoy :)

Fon tok thai song..

This is one song i wanna sing to him..
my heart aches at this stupid thing called infactuation and my brain is exhausted of ideas how to DELETE this person from my entire system.


HOW and WHY can i ever love somebody so much?
 stupidity? confusion? obssession or plain desperation? i justdont know. i'm so tired of fighting the feeling i let it be .. this song makes me feel better. at least there is somebody who understands also.





wun nee fon dtok lai long tee naa dtaang
Today it rained and it flowed down the window.

ter kit teung chun baang mai nor ter
I wonder if you think about me at all. 
meua wun jun tee laew song rao yung dai jer ter song yim maa
Last Monday, the two of us met. And you smiled at me. 
nung yoo kon dee-o lee-o mong tee naa dtaang
Sitting alone, I turned to look out the windows. 
haak mee ter kaang kaang gor kong ja sook jai
If I had you here with me, I'd be so happy. 
ter kong mai roo waa chun eng yung mai mee krai haak ben ter gor kong kao tee
Of course you don't know that I don't have anybody now. If it was you, that would be so great.
ter art ja mee krai kon nun tee saen dee suan chun kon nee gor kong ja sao jai
You might have someone who's just wonderful. And this makes me feel sad all over. 
ter art ja mee faen laew gor ben dai gor yung song sai yung yaak ja roo
Or it's possible that you already have a boyfriend. I am not certain about this...I still want to know. 
wung kae piang ter mee jai hai suk noi
I only hope that you're curious as well 
fao dtae ror koi piang ter bork ruk maa
I only hope that you still have some concern for me. 
sook jai ying nuk tee chun dai piang kae mong dtaa gup ter gor sook soot hua jai 
I'd be extremely happy. If I could just look into your eyes. I'd be the happiest man.
(Interlude) 
ter art ja mee krai kon nun tee saen dee suan chun kon nee gor kong ja sao jai
You might have someone who's just wonderful. And this makes me feel sad all over. 

ter art ja mee faen laew gor ben dai gor yung song sai yung yaak ja roo
Or it's possible that you already have a boyfriend. I am not certain about this...I still want to know. 
wung kae piang ter mee jai hai suk noi
I only hope that you're curious as well 
fao dtae ror koi piang ter bork ruk maa
I only hope that you still have some concern for me. 
sook jai ying nuk tee chun dai piang kae mong dtaa gup ter gor sook soot hua jai 
I'd be extremely happy. If I could just look into your eyes. I'd be the happiest man.
gor sook soot hua jai
I'd be the happiest man.