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dear readers,

Today i'm letting go! yes finally! (its going to be so hard)

i've been praying very hard for others as well as myself recently. the reason i feel my life spiraling out of control is because i have failed to let God take the steering wheel of my life. Mommy has been helping me pray n today for the 1st time in a longggggggg time i felt it was acceptable to be single.

Praise be to God Almighty!!  i finally come to terms with my madness and decided it should end HERE n NOW.

i get to eat good food all day long in penang

i love my job n the kids love creampuff

i get to travel quite often also thanks to job

i have a great God loving family who supports me greatly

i have awesomeball sban frens

awesomeball best fren

awesomeball penang frens

I am so dang GRATEFUL for so many things in life (after clowning at orphanage today)

i actually forgave n met up with the ex and talked for hours like normal mature adults. the question of getting back together is out of the window for this period of time but it was so good to see him grow up so fast in a short period of time. then again TALK IS CHEAP so in time character n action will prove louder.

i will also let go of Mr.X starting today cause its so bodoh semacam to keep holding on to the wind when u know its impossible.  there is no need to RUSH anything or any relationship for that matter.

To make a mini confession following the ex's statement of blowing RM8k after i dumped him, i must confess that i myself have milked my own savings acc so badly i wanna slap myself with my own clown shoes!

 in a matter of 45 days i have swindled RM 3k above for shopping n eating therapy for my bleeding heart!

 ya tuhan..dont ever let my parents hear of my foolishness. never to be repeated again.

so for now i'm going to be ok. (i will miss him then and there but i WILL let go n give up hope)

i will learn to enjoy my singlehood n all the perks that come with it.
i will open up my heart to opportunities n learn so many new things this world has to offer,

i will appreciate the people n places and things around me and complain less,
i will stop waiting for acceptance n living up to ur expectations because its time to decide on what i want myself.
i will fall, rise, grow up, fight n fall again but its ok.

i will sleep well tonight n the nights to come knowing all is going to be ok because God is watching over me..

and if f die it will be with a contented heart...