The pressure to perform, the many identities i take on, the many faces i've become in life...
not all bad yet not all good..some too shameful to share.
why is it so hard to excel in one thing i do? to become:
a God fearing christian. watching ur actions and words as not to leave a bad impression. its just so hard
the best friend, being there through thick and thin. distance has made it quite hard for me to be a good pillar of support
A true friend to many...(ur still my true fren eventho ur face is not here)
the mischievous clown that makes everyone laugh
the partner that devotes time and sacrifice to the other sometimes unrequited
the daughter and sister that is suppose to never fail or dishonour the family,
a role model to the younger siblings.
a student that is suppose to excel in all academics, sports, peer pressure and still have good strong character
the inner demon i fight with everyday in demand to be beautiful, slim and accepted.
(its all worldly lies i know and i still fight against it)
so at the end of the day..who am i?
a cocktail of all the above or just a sad self absorbed bitch who has extreme self pity?
i feel very burdened having to be responsible and committed to so many things now and the greater commitments i have to give in the future..
and i thought the self identity crisis period passed during the teenage years.
am i all alone thinking thoughts as these?
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